Annie was close to my heart from the start, because she reminded me so much of my precious A, the little girl that I helped to raise and who lived with me on and off from ages 2-9. Here are the two of them side-by-side.
On the left is my A. On the right is RR's "Annie".
Wow, right?
How could I not fall in love with the little girl who reminded me so much of the one who holds my heart? Even her description on Reece's Rainbow reminded me of my A.
"Diagnosis: delays in development -report indicates that due to delayed speech, Autism was initially suspected. However, no formal testing has been done and the child’s development is continuing to improve.
Annie is 7 years old. Her motor skills are well developed. She walks, runs, catches & throws a ball, climbs, hops on one foot and participates in musical games that require movement. Her fine motor skills are developing as well. She can open/close scissors and is learning to cut with them. She draws on paper, though she is not yet writing letters. She plays with play dough and builds a tower of 12 blocks. She is in the 1st grade and attending school outside the orphanage. She follows verbal directions and responds to her name. She tries to imitate words said by adults. She currently expresses herself non verbally. She is very protective of her possessions. She doesn’t often initiate play with the other children, but she will play close to them. She will join in organized group activities for short periods of time and is very emotionally responsive to familiar adults. She needs extra time to complete tasks and has a short attention span. She stops inappropriate behaviors when redirected by an adult. She feeds and dresses herself. Since she is non verbal, she does not yet indicate that she needs to go to the bathroom on her own, so she is taken on a schedule and is completely toilet trained using this method."Delayed development... check.
Delayed speech... check.
Autism was initially suspected... check.
Well developed motor skills... check.
Follows verbal directions and responds to her name... check.
Very protective of her possessions... check.
Emotionally responsive to *familiar* adults... check.
Needs extra time to complete tasks... check.
Short attention span... super check.
Stops inappropriate behaviors when redirected... check.
Feeds and dresses herself... check.
Difficulties with toilet training... check.
Those very words could have been written about my A just a few short years ago. In those short years, she has progressed amazingly. I just know that with the love of a family, "Annie" will too.
Because I was instantly drawn to "Annie" because she reminded me so much of my A, I wrote a blog post about her. I shared it in the Reece's Rainbow group I'm in. Someone saw it.
She saw it, and her heart stopped too. She saw it, and she too realized she was looking into the eyes of her little girl. She showed it to her husband... and he, too, realized that this was the child that was meant to be theirs.
Amanda and Collin said "Yes" to Annie. They inquired with an agency and sent commitment papers to both the agency and Reece's Rainbow.
God used me to lead them to their daughter. I truly can't tell you what that meant to me.
You see, the past few years have not been easy ones for my A and I. I can't share all the details, but in short, a little over a year ago, my A confessed something to me that she had never told anyone else. Something bad. Something serious. She needed help... desperately.
I did everything I could to help her. I fought for her. I contacted all the right people. I told them the truth. I prayed for God to help me help A.
A little over a year later, we have been to hell and back. We prayed without ceasing. We went to court.
We lost.
I could not help A escape her situation or her abuser. I made a promise to help her, and I failed.
It is the biggest failure of my entire life.
My heart is broken.
I haven't seen my sweet A in over a year. I don't even know if she is safe. If nothing has changed since the last time I saw her, she almost certainly is not.
I still pray every day.
I still sleep with her stuffed elephant 'lovey' every night.
I still believe she is coming home someday.
But for right now... I couldn't help my precious princess A. I failed her.
| I love you, Princessa. |
Annie is our chance to create beauty from the ashes.
I couldn't help my A, as hard as I tried... but I can help Annie.
And then someday... I will have the most beautiful story to tell my Princessa... about how, without ever knowing it, she helped bring a little orphan girl home to her family.
I already let my sweet girl down. I can't let Annie down too.
When Amanda and Collin began considering committing to Annie, I promised to help them in whatever way possible. They took a huge leap of faith... and I promised to help them make it a success.
I can't break another promise to another little girl.
In honor of my sweet girl... I have to help bring this sweet girl to the parents who love and want her more than anything.
To the family she deserves more than anything.
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| "Annie" |
But I can't do it alone. I am but one person with very limited resources.
I have no job.
I'm not even currently capable of working, having had surgery for a debilitating condition some twelve hours ago.
My bank account reads $0.68
I raided my statehood quarter collection just to eat last week.
I am $400 short of a very important bill that MUST be paid in just over two weeks with no income.
I am crafty, but I have no money to buy supplies. I am, however, little by little, piecing together an auction to benefit Annie's family. But still I have no money to pay for postage.
I have ideas for fundraisers, but lack the resources (not just money - venues, volunteers, etc.) to pull them off.
All I really have...
Is my voice.
So I make it a loud one.
I scream for Annie and the Jones family every opportunity I have.
But my screaming is all for nothing if nobody is listening.
I need you.
Annie needs you.
Amanda and Collin need you.
To bring their little girl home... the very thing I failed at doing a year ago this fall. The very thing that broke my heart.
We - I - can't fail again.
A child's life is on the line.
Everybody can do something. I have seen people give out of nothing - families who are in the process to adopt themselves giving to other families. Individuals who live on a fixed income sharing what little they have to help someone else. Teenagers who save up their babysitting money to help an orphan.
Nearly all of us can spare something. Even if it's only five dollars. One dollar. Any amount counts.
Can you imagine if each one of my friends and family, each one of Amanda and Collin's friends and family, each Reece's Rainbow supporter... gave just five dollars each? Or even one dollar each? Even at that low, easily manageable amount, thousands of dollars would be raised.
Isn't the life of a child worth a dollar to you?
Couldn't you pass up that big mac, or that Starbucks coffee, and eat at home instead, and be a part of saving a child's life?
Besides - God loves a cheerful giver. I can't count the number of times He has blessed me for giving from nothing. You'd be surprised what He will do for you if you give selflessly and with your whole heart.
And if you're in the situation I'm in right now... jobless... in debt... perhaps disabled... and truly don't have two pennies to rub together - there are still things you can do.
When was the last time you cleaned out your basement or attic? Get a Christmas gift last year that just wasn't your style? Unwanted gift cards? Good at a craft? These items make wonderful auction items - all you have to do is contact me at Callmecrazycbus@hotmail.com with a photo and a description of the item(s) you'd like to donate, and I can put them in Annie's Auction. Depending on your location, Amanda or myself can pick up items, or you can ship them to us or directly to the auction winner. Shipping reimbursement is available. It doesn't cost you a thing... and helps clean out your house!
Just cleaned out your house and truly don't have anything extra lying around? No good at arts and crafts? There's STILL something you can do... and it only takes a couple clicks of your mouse. At the bottom of this post, there are several icons that allow you to share it on Facebook, Twitter, Google+, and a variety of other social networks. You can also copy and paste the link to the post anywhere you like. Simply share the post, and maybe it will reach someone who DOES have something to give. It's that easy to be a part of saving a life (not to mention making my day. Seriously, every time someone shares about Annie and her family, I find myself grinning ear to ear for hours).
The easiest way yet to help is to pray. One simple sentence added to your evening prayers. "Dear Lord, please bring Annie home to her family, safe and sound."
I can't imagine that's too much to ask.
I can't turn away. I have to do whatever I can, not just for Annie, but in honor of my A. To create beauty from the ashes. To help heal my broken heart.
Now you know why this means so much to me. And you know exactly how you can help. Please, I'm begging you not to turn away either.
Give. Advocate. Share. Pray. Everyone can do something.
And I guarantee, you won't regret being a part of this sweet girl's miracle.
Helpful links:
To GIVE MONEY:
- 50/50 fundraiser going on at the Jones family's blog until September 2nd HERE.
- Donate through the Jones' tax deductible Reece's Rainbow FSP HERE.
- Donate directly to the Jones' (non-tax deductible) via paypal HERE.
- Contact Amanda for information on sending a check (avoid paypal fees) HERE.
- Order Thirty-One products from Amanda HERE.
To GIVE AUCTION ITEMS:
- Contact me at Callmecrazycbus@hotmail.com.
- Contact Amanda at jones.jer2911@gmail.com.
To ADVOCATE/SHARE:
- Copy and paste the link to this blog post (http://crazy-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/2013/08/close-to-my-heart.html) anywhere you'd like.
- Copy and paste the link to the Jones' blog (http://youbeliftedhigh.blogspot.com/) anywhere you'd like.
- Copy and paste the link to the Jones' Reece's Rainbow FSP (http://reecesrainbow.org/61087/sponsorjones-2) anywhere you'd like.
- Use the 'share buttons' below this post to share it on the social media network of your choice (they look like this):
To PRAY:
- Well - that one's easy!
Remember... EVERYONE can do SOMETHING!









































